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Missed an update due to both colleagues out of office the same week, then an ER visit the Friday of said week (which naturally took 5hours and I wasn't home till after midnight). Then, the next week, tangled with poison ivy, got bit by a green lacewing larvae while IN BED, those little fuckers have a wicked bite, tell you what, and I about lost the entire nights' sleep afterward. Peppered throughout the last couple weeks has been skyrocketing stress and strain and panic over my IFMLA coverage at work because The Hartford decided to be complete shits about the entire process.*
Crushing, debilitating fatigue hit last weekend, got in to see Dr (allergist's office) again, bless them for having same-day appointments!! No flu, no covid, still just loads of white blood cells indicating infection. Likely it's the same infection I had recently that we hoped was viral only - it moved deeper into my sinuses and is bacterial now, again we hope, so I'm on antibiotics.
Due to the ER visit I have colonoscopy this coming Friday that I am NOT looking forward to, more time off work, and the prep is going to make Thursday miserable. And the food intake requirements add another complication into my already stressful FODMAP world (it's going great, really, but adding another goddamned set of restrictions is just not fair!!).
The Sucraid is helping! I'm logging one bowl movement a day now, instead of 3+. It's a little hard to adjust to taking before every meal. FODMAP: Today, I started reintroducing fructose in the form of honey. I might be experiencing some mild bloating, but that could also be from eating large meals. Experiment continues tomrorow.
Yesterday, I rallied enough to get outside and play in rockpiles at a local construction site. Orrin was wonderful and talked with the property owner to get permission for us to take some of the limestone. I really needed that direct contact with sun and dirt. I like the version of me who wears steel-toed workboots and jeans, sweating and doing physical things. I felt pretty lucky to have enough energy yesterday, given all that's been happening. Today, I've mostly dozed. Completely understandable, after the past 2 weeks!
Stress reduction needs to happen, STAT.
*Among the very frustrating aspects of this is each time they fuck me over, my boss gets an email with the ACTUAL LETTER before I do! I get an email telling me there's a new letter in my account, which takes several minutes to log into and locate. So my boss and HR are getting inundated with letters because The Hartford gargles sewage, it looks like I am the problem but I am NOT. First, Hartford cancelled my IFLMA out of nowhere, blamed me for not renewing my paperwork on time (my HR is supposed to remind me, which they did not). First time around, Dr office failed to submit paperwork on time, second attempt my doctor's office fucked up the paperwork then said they just copied from last year, and it was denied so now I'm on claim 3 or 4 I don't even know and it's a nightmare. Taking so much work time, energy, and stress that's causing me measurable harm. My corporate is like "don't make this a habit of missing work" and I'm like, well, if you didn't FORCE ME to jump through all these hoops I wouldn't HAVE to miss work for the appointments! I am so angry and tired and depressed and rage-y and oh yeah also sick again, or still, with a sinus infection.
Crushing, debilitating fatigue hit last weekend, got in to see Dr (allergist's office) again, bless them for having same-day appointments!! No flu, no covid, still just loads of white blood cells indicating infection. Likely it's the same infection I had recently that we hoped was viral only - it moved deeper into my sinuses and is bacterial now, again we hope, so I'm on antibiotics.
Due to the ER visit I have colonoscopy this coming Friday that I am NOT looking forward to, more time off work, and the prep is going to make Thursday miserable. And the food intake requirements add another complication into my already stressful FODMAP world (it's going great, really, but adding another goddamned set of restrictions is just not fair!!).
The Sucraid is helping! I'm logging one bowl movement a day now, instead of 3+. It's a little hard to adjust to taking before every meal. FODMAP: Today, I started reintroducing fructose in the form of honey. I might be experiencing some mild bloating, but that could also be from eating large meals. Experiment continues tomrorow.
Yesterday, I rallied enough to get outside and play in rockpiles at a local construction site. Orrin was wonderful and talked with the property owner to get permission for us to take some of the limestone. I really needed that direct contact with sun and dirt. I like the version of me who wears steel-toed workboots and jeans, sweating and doing physical things. I felt pretty lucky to have enough energy yesterday, given all that's been happening. Today, I've mostly dozed. Completely understandable, after the past 2 weeks!
Stress reduction needs to happen, STAT.
*Among the very frustrating aspects of this is each time they fuck me over, my boss gets an email with the ACTUAL LETTER before I do! I get an email telling me there's a new letter in my account, which takes several minutes to log into and locate. So my boss and HR are getting inundated with letters because The Hartford gargles sewage, it looks like I am the problem but I am NOT. First, Hartford cancelled my IFLMA out of nowhere, blamed me for not renewing my paperwork on time (my HR is supposed to remind me, which they did not). First time around, Dr office failed to submit paperwork on time, second attempt my doctor's office fucked up the paperwork then said they just copied from last year, and it was denied so now I'm on claim 3 or 4 I don't even know and it's a nightmare. Taking so much work time, energy, and stress that's causing me measurable harm. My corporate is like "don't make this a habit of missing work" and I'm like, well, if you didn't FORCE ME to jump through all these hoops I wouldn't HAVE to miss work for the appointments! I am so angry and tired and depressed and rage-y and oh yeah also sick again, or still, with a sinus infection.
